Our devotions were out of Jeremiah 15:15-21 (ESV). As I was reading this scripture, studying it, and thinking about it, I mentioned to my husband Paul that I felt the Holy Spirit was speaking directly to me. In verse 18, Jeremiah speaks so honestly and directly to the Lord. I was taken back by his words to God. He said, “Why is my pain unceasing, my wound incurable, refusing to be healed? Will you be to me like a deceitful brook, like waters that fail?” He was asking God during a dark and depressed moment if he could trust Him. He told God that he felt like He had failed him, and left him. If I were to be honest, I was feeling the same way that day, but too afraid to say anything to God, because it sounded so disrespectful. God knows our thoughts and what is in our hearts. I know that to be true, yet hesitate to be fully honest sometimes. Tears began to stream down my cheeks as I realized God would not fall off his throne if I were honest about how I felt about the COVID19 Pandemic. Healing and restoration began, as I was honest with God. I asked Him to restore me and to forgive me for feeling abandoned. God speaks to his prophet Jeremiah in the next verse. Jeremiah 15:19 (ESV). The Lord says to him, “If you return, I will restore you and you shall stand before me.” He did not say to Jeremiah, “Don’t bother to come back again with that attitude,” but gently and firmly said, “Come back, I will fix you.” I surrendered my feelings to Jesus during that morning devotional and He did restore me. A wonderful sense of well-being flooded my being. COVID19 is still going on, and we still have daily struggles, battles, and sad feelings, but God is true to His word, “Come back, I will fix you.” I will need to keep coming back to be fixed inside as this trial continues. Our Jesus is the well of Living Water that will never run dry!
